A Minute Of Healing Our Disfunctional Paradise


Fear Turned Into Gritty Steps in My Path

Nothing obstructs my path except for those things my fear has placed before me. Though the obstructions are hidden and live unseen in my mind, I become aware of them when I crash into the wall of their power. Ah, but my spirit of courage and inquiry flushes the hidden into view! Now that they are viewed from the light of my spirit, they are changed and melt into my path offering the sure footing of gritty steps that lead to my expansion.

Spiritual Journey Tip:

The ego (simply the belief that your body with all of its vulnerabilities and abilities is your true identity and must be guarded and defended at ALL costs) will always attempt to claim you for itself. It cannot help itself. It is hardwired to protect who it thinks it is. And it will never go away as long as we are in human form.

But our spiritual evolution has us turn our focus away from the finite capacity of our human form toward the unseen realm of our Being. The power of life is in the unseen. It leaves our bodies when we die and our bodies collapse.  The leaf moves when the wind nudges it to move. “There is no power in effect.” Joel Goldsmith.

As we surrender, which is the prompting from our souls, toward our true identity, the ego rages as it feels like it is being attacked. In the beginning of the spiritual journey, the roller coaster ride of surrendering to our true calling is a frightful experience. And it does not last. The ego EVENTUALLY relaxes as it knows its desire to maintain life is an illusion. It can’t. It does not have the power.

As we focus more and more on this unseen power, the ego withers. I call it the Great Withering. It is in this way that we become fully alive. Fear does not blind us to our true magnificence. The body comes alive as it is illuminated from within allowing us to fully enjoy our five senses.

Yes, it is true that the ego must do what it must do to survive. This impulse has allowed humans to flourish when we would have died off otherwise. But the unseen can’t help itself either. It is quiet and assured of its identity knowing that time is a friend to humans. Time allows us to evolve into spiritual beings in human form who fully enjoy life in a universe that has its own evolution.

Practice Saying 100 times a day: I Am a part of the grand design.
See what happens.

Forgive Your Mother and Spiritual Growth Beach Retreats-Spiritual Counseling-Two Groups-Looking for HOST!

Become Your Own Healer- We create our experiences by the type of focus we allow for that creation. We each decide the level of positive and negative return from our focused attention.

Women’s Spiritual Beach Retreats – Seaside, Florida
Only five participants per retreat!
Retreat Schedule: Fridays at 1pm to Sunday at 1pm in Seaside, Florida!
May 9-10-11th Forgiving Our Mothers (at least a little bit) 101 –Right Before Mother’s Day!
September 18-19-20th Spiritual Connection to Source-From Concept to Daily Reality

Doing little or nothing can be a spiritual experience! Give yourself a Seaside Retreat, which includes two nights at the beach, a massage, healthy food, naps, beach time and play! A two hour workshop that can help you transcend “the place of stuck” are held Saturday and Sunday! It is a weekend that has been known to change lives Cost: $470.00

Spiritual Counseling- This is the next step in our human evolution toward spiritual clarity. This service is a bridge between traditional therapy and religion. We see that religious dogma and old thought hinder our spiritual deepening and the pain of that is evident all around us. “We are not human beings having a spiritual experience; we are spiritual beings having a human experience.” Teilhard de Chardin What kind of experience are you having? One on one 1hr and 1/2 sessions. $50.00-$120.00 Sliding Scale We meet at my office at 1304 East 6th Avenue ~ One block away from TMH~ Corner of Lee and 6th, Tallahassee

Women’s Spirit Group- Choose from two groups. Wednesday group meets in Tallahassee. The Monday night group meets in Wakulla County. We meet as a way to stay connected to our spiritual selves and to remember that we are so much more than bodies living an earthly life! A great healing and expansion is happening! Wednesdays and Mondays 6:30-8:00 $10.00 Bring a friend! Wednesday group meet at my office at LOCATION: 1304 East 6th Avenue ~ One block away from TMH~ Corner of Lee and 6th, Tallahassee
Email me for directions for Monday night group!

Evolve Talk Hosted By Local Expanders of Consciousness-Are you one of those people? Changing our world one HOST at a time.
I AM presently looking for HOST-Do you have an area of expertise through life experience, non-traditional/new-traditional, or consciousness changing studies that you would like to share with an audience and potentially new clients? Do you or your business offer hope, positive direction or life-affirming information? I am creating a website that will house evolvetalk.com hosts and their message of healing, expansion and new awareness toward a better world. Health, financial, education, social and spiritual systems are giving way to new insights and the HOST at evolvetalk.com, are helping to bring these positive changes into our world! We are living in a time of great possibility for transcending beliefs, experiences and fear. This website will allow the voices of social, spiritual and visionary people, on their own journeys of transcendence, to assist others so that our world can step into the existence we have long suspected was possible. Please contact me if you think you might be interested in hosting a show on evolvetalk.com. Training is provided. As a HOST of your own 25 minute show, you decide the level of investment depending on frequency of show and technology required for your show.

Vickie Spray incorporates her life-lessons with ancient and modern text in her effort to serve others on their journey in life. She is DELIGHTED to have found where she can be of service!
vickiespray@yourlifeexpressions.com 850-322-6944 www.yourlifeeexpressions.com

After 14 Years of Writing! Rose Painted Waters Is Available! Found in Healing Products

Rose has been born into a crazy family. Her Dad drops a barrel of fried chicken onto the plywood kitchen table on his way to the tv after work Monday through Friday and then drinks for most of the weekend as a reward for his labor. Her Mom drinks as well and pill pops as a way to cope with five children and an unhealed heart. She offers Rose little in the way of motherly guidance and what she does offer often does not prove to be useful. Her four brothers are whirlwinds of dysfunction and angst. But an impromptu and nearly disastrous road trip provides Rose with a dream of becoming a mermaid like her aunt who works at a Florida tourist attraction. She believes this might get her out of the small world of chaos and working-class poverty.
But there is a small problem. Her Mom’s dependency on alcohol ruins the chance for Rose to establish a peaceful life. Rose is uprooted again leaving her Aunt Jackie and the only chance she feels she had to become a mermaid. Rose and her brothers are driven by her angry and dazed mother to a dilapidated hotel with a missing H and this becomes a launching pad for Rose as she discovers she has had enough and she must do something about the way her life is headed. She steals two of her mother’s beers, thinking this is where courage is found and heads for the woods. Her wits and her yearning to overcome her lot in life propel her to keep trying to better her situation, no matter how many obstacles she must overcome. But the world can be a scary place and family members are not the only crazy people in the world. Rose discovers that she might have to swim through the mud before she can dart through the clear waters of her dreams.


     Free yourself from weight of all those heart-shields. They are heavy and pull your chest down to your belly as you get older. You were born into a dysfunctional paradise.  You have jounced with mean people who were clueless of their own magnificence and you fell hard onto the ground of sadness. Their stable assuredness convinced you, as you picked yourself up from a new disorientation that they knew something about you that you did not and so you became afraid.

     You became afraid of your own magnificence. You have remained small to spare yourself from having to walk upright with your heart open. Crumbs from the table of love litter the floor of your past. Your life, in its thousands and thousands of joyful moments do not reach into the depths of you because you are afraid. You are afraid to risk finding out that the mean people were correct. You really are not up to the game. You really are lacking in your ability to be your unique and screwy self. They were tall. They were sure of their opinion and they were right.

     They are right if you make them right. Their dysfunction becomes your dysfunction. Their unhealed life becomes your unhealed life. What if there is something inside of you that has never been negatively affected by anything that has ever happened to you? You have seen that in others. You have heard some people’s horrible stories of abuse and neglect and how they then served to create a powerful voice for the weak and unprotected.  They had something in them that would not allow the undesirable experiences to create undesirable qualities within themselves.  They did not layer their hearts with protective shields of fear in order to keep themselves safe. They recognized that they, the they of who they really are, could not be sullied or damaged by anything done to them.  That something that these people have, that something that helped them to transcend meanness and neglect, is in all of us. It is simply waiting for our focused attention.      

     We deserve to live light lives open and unencumbered by the heavy weight of false stories. The true story of our lives is within us. It is the story of pure grace and loving power. It is a soul story that knows it is infinite and able to rewrite each tier of our lives. It is reliable and sturdier than our deepest fears. Our fearful minds, the part of us that made up the lies so that we might remain safe can become a tool for our soul’s intent.  Our minds can be a place where soft reflections create a life walked in peace out and away from the roar of a fearful world.  By choosing to heal, we join our will to our higher mind.

We can reconnect to our bodies, falling again in love with our feet like we did as children, our hands like we did when we first discovered their usefulness and our sexuality when we first knew the power of true intimacy.  We can choose to heal ourselves so relationships feed the members of that relationship, helping each of them to blossom into who they have come to this earth to become.  We can choose to heal ourselves because we owe it to ourselves to allow that inner light to have its full expression. There is a paradise within each of us and our attention is the sun that draws it fullness out into the open.  In this way the world evolves into its own possibility.



2014 Forgiving Ourselves and Others    

One Hour That Could Change Your Life

January 5, 2014 6:30-7:30

Acknowledge~ Release~ Release Again

1st Annual Event for Living in New Consciousness


For people who want to live without holding a grudge against themselves or others in the upcoming year 2014.

  • We take responsibility for our own pain
  • We acknowledge wrongs we have done toward ourselves
  • We acknowledge wrongs done to others
  • We are willing, as much as we are able, to release our hope that the past can change
  • We are willing, as much as we are able, to release ourselves from guilt for the hurt we have caused ourselves and others
  • We are willing, as much as we are able, to release any form of resentment toward others for the hurt they have caused us or others 


    ARTS- 2743 Capital Circle NE Suite 105

    A few doors down from Espositos behind Carrabba’s on Capital Circle NE

Contact Vickie Spray at: vickiespray@yourlifeexpressions.com


Please bring a journal/notebook. Donations accepted.

Spiritual Counseling – The Next Step in the Healing of Our Minds

Spiritual Counseling- This is a bridge that crosses over religious dogma. Many people feel they must abandon their spiritual journey when they step away from organized religion.  They can experience a loss of the feeling they are connected to the Great Unseen. Many have been in limbo, not knowing that the spiritual connection they were seeking can be nurtured and honored without religion. Life can compound the feeling of separation and years add to more and more human wounds. My spiritual counseling helps people become their own healers. I help individuals transcend the human condition of fear, angst, regret and confusion by helping them obtain a new understanding of spiritual awareness. I assist them in their reclamation of their true identity as powerful Beings. We move forward in our human evolution by recognizing we are so much more than humans on an earthly journey! By the use of mystical spiritual practices, by becoming an observer and then director of our thoughts and by recognizing the wounds we have experienced from religious dogma, we grow into our spiritual Being-ness.

 $50.00-$120.00 Sliding Scale- One hour and a half sessions.

Excerpt From: Finding My Soul Stride – by Vickie Spray

     I suddenly saw myself as if in a dream. I was an indistinct shape which was moving with purpose toward something I could not see. I knew this indistinct shape to be me though my physical appearance was not obvious.  I also knew and I felt absolute peacefulness as I moved toward an unseen destination. Suddenly, something came quickly from behind me and before I even knew what was happening, with swift intention it attacked, covering me entirely with its ferocious energy. I felt the intense calculation and implementation of the attack. I was the surprised prey brought down by an experienced and malicious predator. In one movement I was completely overtaken by this entity. It had just one purpose and that was to cover me with its own self.  I did not stand a chance. In an instant, I could not see myself at all, as I was beneath this vigorous power. Even though I was in a dreamlike state, I could feel my terror and I felt completely powerless to do anything about what was happening. I was surprised that I was so overwhelmed with the supremacy of the attack. I could not muster my will to struggle against it. Strange, that at this realization, I felt my ego pop up and can remember  feeling chagrined that something had come along that could totally take me down so much that I could not offer an ounce of resistance. I sunk into the inevitability of my defeat.

Suddenly, something else appeared in one swoosh of energy.  It fell upon the predator and in as effective a move as the attacker, threw my assailant off of me and out of my mind’s view. In an instant I was free from its grasp.  I was immediately free to move again. I slowly began to stir. At that moment all the images disappeared. I awoke shaken and fearful and also deeply affected because I had never felt I had someone that would protect me with such forceful power, amazing strength and clear intention. When I awakened entirely, I began to look for an explanation. It was either I had experienced an energetic attack of some sort and that I had been protected by a type of warrior energy that I had not realized existed or the whole thing could be explained by a Freudian psychologist who understood the mental configurations a person might experience when she is beginning a deep awakening of her authentic nature.

Being attacked was a familiar feeling.  I had long realized my childhood taught me that no matter how hard I tried to overcome my circumstances, there was something that would eventually get me and take me down. This belief is something many victims of abuse or others who have had a rough beginning carry with them as a truth. For me, there was an added family mythology of a Spanish curse being carried by the maternal side of my family. My mother’s mother was murdered while I was in the seventh month in my mother’s womb. My mother’s father died of an overdose alone in a hotel in Florida. It was ruled an accident. My mother’s sister died from cirrhosis of the liver in a mental institution. My mother was murdered by one of her johns when I was fourteen and she was thirty one. I carried a molded fear within me that all my efforts to transcend the muck of my heritage would in the end be declared futile.  With work, getting sober and attention I whittled the fear down to a manageable size but like most beliefs, size does not matter. It is the potency of the belief that affects the outcome of a life. A fear that has been crystalized into a concentrated belief can easily be revived when that belief is threatened. In this case I had recently begun to desire a fulfillment of some of my deepest dreams. I wanted to be a writer.   I wanted to have a home. I wanted an intimate partner that I could trust. I was on the verge of having all of these things.  I had completed my novel and had bought land with my life-mate with the plans to eventually build a home. This was the first time in my life that all these things had come together.  I was beginning to wake up to my possibility and my connection to that possibility and yet I was afraid. To paraphrase Rilke’s metaphor of fear, the beginning of my awakening had stirred the dragons guarding my deepest treasures. I think that as I laid there that day, my potent fear that I could not really overcome my childhood no matter how things looked on the surface was activated  as they always had been when I made some headway on my personal endeavors. It was old story for me being played out in an energetic waking state where my shadow self became a vicious attacker and my identity as victim felt completely unable to resist the force of the attack.

But something happened that afternoon. I was able to witness myself and feel myself being concisely protected by something bigger than my belief about myself. It was larger than the curse and much more potent than the fear of never being able to transcend my childhood. The energy that rescued me from my predator was swift, purposeful and amazingly astute at annihilating an enemy. I had the feeling that this energy had a specific purpose for its existence and that was to protect me. This was yet another experience that would open my world into the possibility of unseen energy forces willing to be dynamically involved in my physical life. Or maybe, it was both. Maybe it is true that we all have warrior protectors that have agreed to be with us on this earthly journey. It sure felt like it was something that was beyond my conscious ability to create as it came with such force and completely unsolicited as I did not even know that this kind of protection was available. Or maybe it was indeed a combination of this and having taken many steps toward my possibility finally reaching a crucial momentum that invited my higher self to be more actively engaged in my journey.

Excerpt From Finding My Soul Stride  by Vickie Spray

©Vickie Spray 2013

Story Circle-Write Your Story

 Your Life Expressions Presents

Write Your Story

Tallahassee Story Circle

Beginning November 3rd 3-5pm

1st Sunday of the Month


“A Story Circle is a group of women who come together on a regular basis to write, share, and celebrate the stories of their lives.” –Story Circle Network

 We all have stories that yearn to be told. They can be voiced through prose, poetry, or non-fiction, but the stories of our lives deserve attention. Women have long benefitted from hearing about the experiences of other women. As witnesses to another woman’s story, we empower ourselves each time we hear how she overcame a weakness or how she met a specific challenge. We are made wiser by hearing the path of a woman to her specific wisdom. We are made more compassionate toward ourselves when we tell our stories within the safe environment of empathetic women. And we laugh, because life is just sometimes outrageously funny.

“We     write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospection…We write to     be able to transcend our life, to reach beyond it. We write to teach     ourselves to speak with others, to record the journey into the labyrinth.”

-Anais Nin


What was my most significant life experience?

  • What stories from my life always come up in conversation?
  • Who influenced or influences my life?
  • What home brings up the most poignant memories?
  • Which story from my life best illustrates who I am?


Here’s How It Works: There will only be (up to) 8 women in this group. We meet the first Sunday of the month. You sign up for six months for $78.00 ($13.00 each month) If you want to continue in the group, your place in the group will be held when the next 6 month group forms (which will most likely be the following month after the first one ends). Our goal, as a group will be to assist one another in our writing. There will be time for writing, sharing and gentle critiquing.


LOCATION: 1304 East 6th Avenue  ~  One block away from TMH~ Corner of Lee and 6th


PLEASE CONTACT:  Vickie L. Spray  ~  vickiespray@yourlifeexpressions.com  ~  850-322-6944