When I look back on my life, I see a woman who has failed miserably on many occasions and achieved huge steps toward living a loving and authentic life on many other occasions.
Most of my failures, in my mind, stem from the pain I have inflicted on others. I still sometimes cringe from the memories of hurting some of the people who entered my journey. There have been a hundred hurts and a thousand regrets. Many choices were made from fear. I made choices influenced by fear of myself, fear of others, fear of the future, fear that the past would irrevocably harm my future and fear that there is not enough me, enough love and enough time. I admit my failures freely.
And if I am to evolve into the person I came onto this earth to become, I will learn from the pain I heave caused others. I will use each painful infraction, no matter how big or how small, as a way to deepen my love for myself as a spiritual being and to expand my love for others as they move in their own journey as spiritual beings. I will seek forgiveness from those I have hurt and forgive myself in the absence or presence of their ability to forgive.
Most of my achievements stem from my compassion toward my human journey. When I apply compassion to my life, I can see a woman who was afraid but courageous and a woman who might have been weakened by the lack of emotional tools but buoyed up by her insistence to flourish. This choice to apply compassion to my life’s walk has assisted others in their walk. I have, by virtue of being a human being seeking a full spiritual Self, given inspiration to other human journeyers. My achievements are a part of my human life. I gladly accept that I will continue to fail and that I will continue to achieve.
