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Where Strength Abounds

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A friend once told me that when she is able to feel the quiet force of the Universe she feels an abounding love. I responded that when I am able to feel the quiet force of the Universe, I feel power. I could tell from the look on her face that this startled her and it may have even made her a little afraid.

I have since come to realize that I did not know the type of love that she was talking about and she did not know the type of power that I was talking about and that we were talking about the same thing. I can say this because I recently woke up from a deep sleep and felt this powerful love.

It was the strangest thing because this feeling was not coming from me. I was actually only a witness. What happened was that I woke up and instantly felt something I had never felt before being directed toward two of my friends who happen to be a long- term couple. It came from the right of me and was complete in itself, unadulterated and unshakable. It took me a few seconds to realize that it was love!

This love did not seem to have any expectation of anything in return. It had a “Just Is” quality to it and I trusted it immediately. I felt the intensity of it’s being and yet I knew instinctively that it had no purpose. It was being what it Is. It was not revved up for this particular occasion. I did not come upon it in my dreams and discover something new. It was there and had been there for a very long time. It was kindness and compassion. It was penetrable and impenetrable. I suppose, now that I look at that evening, that the power was not only in its unmovable quality but in its total lack of concern, this sounds funny, for other people’s opinion. It was going to do what it Is and it needed nothing else from anything else to accomplish what it naturally does in its being. I remember thinking, Ah! This is the Being I have been reading about and feeling little nudges from!

My friends did not respond. I had the feeling they were just going about their daily lives while this power directed its love toward them. It occurred to me that this happens a lot. That an amazing source of love is working in our behalf and we are mostly oblivious. I do not remember that I had any judgment around this thoght. I do remember thinking how strange it was that my friends could have this much undeviating interest from the Universe and they be so seemingly unaware of its presence. To my credit, I quickly asked myself if I walk around in my daily life with the full awareness of this kind of love. The answer is no. No judgment (well, maybe a little).

But, also to my credit, since that night of being a witness to this powerful love, I have been deciding to become aware of its presence in my life. Some amazing things are happening in direct result of that night’s grace and my deepening decision to pay attention. There were a few other images on that night of insight that I am still processing. The glimpse I have received of the existence of a powerful love has filled me with a hope I did not have previously and a strength that bolsters me in a way I could not have predicted.

Who Knew?

wise womanMy path has lead me to the part of Me that is hidden and infinite. The identity of the me that I know disappears and is being replaced by a timeless force. I become less afraid and more assured. I can trust this quiet power. As whoo whoo as this sounds even to me, I can not help but allow it to swirl inside of me.

If I believe there is a spiritual force beneath the activity of human life and if I believe that every human being is able to tap into that force, then I would be remiss to not explore the possibilities that this belief creates. I have found, when I can stop for a few seconds throughout my day and breath in and breath out (sometimes just in two conscious breaths!) I am again aware of my full connectedness to this spiritual force. I feel peace and I feel the wholeness that some of the great spiritual teachers over the centuries said existed. I get this just by stopping, and being still for a few minutes each day. The desire I have for a peaceful life is fulfilled in these moments. The wisdom and insights I receive in these moments are added gifts that amaze me.

It is free. It is infinite. All I have to do is remember to do it and I am doing that more and more.

I am beginning to understand more about how it all works. Each time I stop and acknowledge that I am a Human Being who is connected to the Spiritual Universe, I live from a place of spiritual connectedness. I am “in the flow,” as they say. I can feel the unity. I rest within the easy system of unhindered life. I am a part of it and somehow know that I will always be a part of the energy that knows no bounds. I am beginning to recognize this connectedness as part of who I actually Am. I am beginning to live from THAT identity. Right now, I am doing this for moments in my day. I see though, how this could grow into longer moments. I see how it is possible to have an entire day that has me walking on this earth living a fully human life as a spiritual Being who knows her true authentic Self.

Copyright 2010
Vickie Spray

I Am Alive

sometimes-fawn Sometimes I am a fawn on unsteady legs. My eyes are wide open with effort and my face is tense with earnest desire. A butterfly may flutter by and for a moment, I forget my goal of standing steady. Thankfully, the butterfly knows where it must go and I am left again with my intention.

Sometimes I am a bear whose strength is unquestioned. My fortitude can not be denied. I rest peacefully beneath the protection of great trees. I fight when I must fight. I lumber away from concerns that do not support my peace and I do not question things that do not need to be questioned.

Sometimes, I am an owl who is not defined by the opinion of others. I fly in majestic aloneness. I do what I must do. I am eerily beautiful and I am very, very good at what I do.

Sometimes I am a dog whose playfulness knows no bounds and whose love is as boundless as her desire to take naps, eat and proffer a belly rub.

Sometimes, I am a cat and that is just fine with me.