Monthly Archives: November 2009

When I Choose to Live Fully

Fully Human

I discard the constraints of fear that I have inherited from my culture, my family, and my own small thinking. I choose which thoughts I will entertain and which thoughts I will automatically shun in my effort to keep open a channel for joy. I open my eyes to the flower that will bloom only on this day knowing this keeps my heart open always. When my heart is open, my soul celebrates the blossoming of one human into its fullness. My fullness is added to the river that connects me to all things.

I am aware there are horrendous acts of human against human happening in every minute in every day. It has always been thus. I will not partake in those interactions. I work toward my inner peace. I accept people for who they are and I forgive when I can and try hard to overcome my resistance to forgiving when I detect its presence. I volunteer and donate where I am able and leave the rest to Life. I breathe in the abundant beauty that surrounds me and do not take for granted the kindness of strangers.

I become larger and the world becomes more capable of offering safety, peace and wisdom to it inhabitants. I provide a yes to the river of collective consciousness and tap into the many “Yes’s” of others. I gain strength from the positive choices of those on the steady path to enlightenment.

I can love, from a distance, when someone’s personality does not fit my life. I can hold that love and honor that love with the full understanding that they rest within the same Life as I and have a purpose they are attempting to fulfill. I am irrevocably connected to the life that resides within them. I practice bowing to the life within them.

Sometimes my agreement to live fully will be with a raised fist of defiance and other times a quiet nod of acceptance. It is a conscious choice that rides my ability to trust. I am a Spiritual Being in human form on an earthly journey.

I have hurt others while on this journey and I am sorry for the pain I have caused. Others have hurt me while on their own adventure on this earth. It is inevitable that our respective weaknesses would sting the other. It is not inevitable that I would conjure up an opinion concerning anyone’s worth because of the weaknesses. I release my grip on the negative reaction to another person’s or my actions and open myself to the peace that can replace that counter to peace.

I Would Do It Again In a Skinny Minute


I am telling anyone who will listen that to take six months away from the rut of their working lives could change the rest of their time on this earth. I am convinced that it would make such a difference in our society as a whole that the pharmaceutical companies might get nervous if enough people started doing it.

Imagine six months of waking up in the morning and having a total of two things that absolutely must get done on that day and one of those things is taking a nap. Though that is not exactly how I spent my time as I was attempting to start an entrepreneurial business, I had enough of that kind of day toward the end of this six month stretch of time to garner an immense respect for the concept. The only thing I would have done differently would be to not spend so much time sitting at my computer learning about viral marketing..

I had to weigh my odds when I took this jump of leaving a secure job for a small chance that my business would take off. I had to be willing to go into debt. I had to live with many unknowns and insecurities. I had to be honest about my strengths and weaknesses and my abilities. You get down to you when you open yourself up to the unknown. I said at least a dozen times in these months of exploration that I completely understand why people do not do this. Now I can say that though I understand why more people are not taking six months off from making money, I can absolutely say with surety that to do so could make the difference in living a fulfilled life and living a mundane existence.

I am full of advise on how to do it if anyone is interested. Hell, I might even write a book after I have had time to process some of this. The one thing I would tell them is to not have an agenda concerning how to make money for six month. Just enjoy. Just play in the yard and sleep in and write, paint and start a garden. Learn how to speak Spanish or play the guitar. Go to bed early and get up late. Do whatever you want to do that you have not been able to do because you had to be somewhere.